Huan Da, 安息吧

Hubby's best friend suddenly passed away yesterday, in Muar. A friend who called Jay last night said he was helping friend to build a bird nest house, and fall from high point, with head landed onto the ground, went unconscious for 2 days, and passed away yesterday. He left his wife, friends, and family, just like that. Without last word spoken, without last reminder, without last hug.

I was shocked. Cried. He is such a good friend to have. And he likes to joke around, being around him you will never feel bored. And he will do lots of things for friends, even though he don't express it, but, from small little things, I can notice this trait after knowing him not long.

We went to bed last night, with heavy heart and not much words spoken to each other.

This morning, Jay kissed my forehead tenderly before going to work. He every morning also will kiss my forehead before going to work, but today, I can feel it was with tones of love and feeling. I was very touched. After Jay left for work, I can't help but to think about a lot of things, about death.

If someone die, what was playing on their mind the second before they breath the last breath?

If someone die suddenly, do they realize they are dying? Or they just continue doing the last thing they are doing?

When someone die, do they get a chance to speak to God, and ask for extention? And what would have God answer to him?

After someone die, can they see their friends and family crying with heart broken, and can they touch their tears and whisper into their heart, "don't cry... I am fine here"... Can they still kiss their wife and tell her don't be too sad and that they will meet again in the future at God's side? And when they kiss their wife, can the wife feel?

And then a question to God, why good people seems to die so young, and the bad people, still wake up every day breathing fresh air, and continue living their good life by torturing people around them?? Why???

The last we saw him, it was this year Chinese New Year, at Jay's parents house. He was still full of jokes, eating, chatting, and saying he wants to come shanghai visit us one day.

If I would have known this was the last face-to-face meeting with him, I would have hug him instead of just a waving good bye to him.

If his wife know he doesn't have many days in life that time, would she have agreed with him to come settle at Muar instead of Jakarta? Would she have sacrificed her work and family for the man she loves? He loves her so much and kept saving money so he could provide her a good life in Muar and not having to live separately in 2 different land. He is really a good man, for his wife, family, and his friends!

Huan Da, Jay and I will forever have a spot in our heart to remember you, and your jokes. We will miss you. 安息吧。