HK trip with babe~

I used to think HK is a very boring city, except for shopping. Apparently, if you go to any city on a vacation purpose, together with your love ones, it's an exciting trip:-)

So on a short circuited decision, we have decided to visit HK on Jan 2 - 4th, with some HKD, and a book about HK eating places, we boarded the plane to HK.

We arrived HK airport around noon, stored the luggage in HK airport for only 55 HKD for more than 3 hours storage service, and took S1 bus from HK to DungChung, to visit the Buddha. It was a fun ride (yes we both bought the octopus card). within 15 min and reach already, it's a double decker:)
Winston was late for an hour! He said overslept.. But anyway, the cable car ride was quite fun, with the luxury of viewing the HK airport, and crossing many small mountains. It was quite cold up there.


I like this picture a lot... give a very peaceful thought looking at it.. with the sun setting behind the Buddha.

There are a lot of people on that day, and it took us half an hour queeing up to get on the cable car to go up, and another half an hour to come down, and each ride is also a half an hour. Oh, heard that cable car got accident before - dropped to the sea during the test ride, wah lao eh... scared scared. But anyway, by the time we get down to the base again, it was 7.30pm. We quickly take the bus back to airport, claim our luggage, and took another airport shuttle bus to hotel (we got a good deal on shuttle bus, only 160 HKD for 2 person, coz we booked the airticket with ctrip. This kind of shuttle bus brings us to hotel directly, not the one just stop at subway).

By the time we got to hotel, it was past 8pm, we were hungry, tired, and have to meet winston at causeway bay at 8.30pm, so we were very rushed. Upon checking in Park Hotel (at Tsim Sa Zui), we were so surprised the officer upgraded us to a suite!! It has a living room, 2 TV, 2 bathroom, and a bedroom. I was jumping up and down in the room, feeling so happy with the space and the treatment. Woo... this is a bonus:)
The dinner that Calvin treated us was so tasty, until I forgot to snap some photos :( yah, too hungry and too busy eating. haha.. and I can't remember the place name again. ee... it's something under the bridge. The lala and prawn are so tasty! After dinner, we shop shop, walk walk, and it is so hard to believe the street is still full of people even at 11.30pm. Wow...


The first night, I got my loccitane lotion, 1 pair of converse, and Jay got his facial stuff, from sasa, haha, i can't believe he is so concern about his facial products.

Jay almost dropped dead when we reached hotel. So we slept and only woke up "naturally" (自然醒） the next day.

More shopping the next day, we went Mongkok for Jay's shoes, and then meet winston at 金钟 for lunch, where we bump into a friend we know in Shanghai, what a small world:


Babe has his favorite wonton mee, twice some more.
The day ended with shopping shopping and shopping, we have to go back to hotel for 2 times to put down the stuff because we can't walk with heavy bags. Luckily the hotel is in town and thank God HK has efficient subway system. Supposed to meet Lee Ken Kok my high-school schoolmate for dinner, but Jay was so tired he barely can open his eyes. So Ken only came to our hotel to chit chat with us. Feel so pai seh. Babe closed his eyes half way of the conversation, Ken and I were puzzled for 2 seconds. hehehe...

The next day, it's the check out day. We left our luggage with the hotel, because our flight was in the late evening. Both of us are tired of shopping, and so we decided to take a good look at HK. We visited the 半山扶梯 at 中环. It was a Sunday, we are not sure does the Philipino maid get off day on every Sunday or not, because the WHOLE 中环 is full of them, sitting on the floor, chit-chatting, laughing, and buying stuff.

This is one of the entrance to the escalotor link alley:



We also went Lan Kwai Fong, just for the fun of mimicking those HK stars walking down the staircase in drunkard steps:P

Saw this cute little poster, about the mut-dou in the subway hall, so cute lah:) And the subway station in zhonghuan is so empty, look:



So after that, we went back to Tsim Sa Zui, and walk to the 星光大道 where lots of HK stars palm-print onto the floor. I am surprised to see many BIG palm, and also surprised some people have small fat palm, like 郑志伟，hehehe... Below one is my favortie HK star, 刘青云
This is Jay's most respected HK star, Bruce Lee!



So you see, we did a lot of walking. By the time we finished that stretched, Jay is so hungry, he kept saying he wanted to eat dimsum. So I brought him to the dimsum place where our company always go during the toy fair, 鸿星酒家, yum yum. Can you see Jay's happy face?:)


By the time we finished dimsum, it's about time to go airport. So we went back hotel to collect our luggage, and took their free shuttle bus to kowloon airport express subway station. HK do everything so efficient, and if you buy ticket for 2, you even get discount. I only pay 140 for tickets of two for the express train, instead of 160. And, the ride is smooth and short.
I returned home, feeling happy with 3 pairs of shoes (the discount is even better than Shanghai buy 300 free 150), and 1 Le Sportac bag:) Almost bought a Gucci bag which is on 30% sales in airport, but Jay gave me that kind of look... so I say to the Gucci bag, "perhaps next time sweetie, I will keep you in mind"

It's a fun trip, most importantly, because it was with Jay:) (have been to HK many times for business trips, and I never really did walk around it like this time)

Bye Bye lousy 2008...

Tomorrow is December 31, 2008. So fast, 1 year just passed like this.

It's definitely the worst year in my life, and I hope (with finger crossed) 2009 is a GREAT year for me! (I just won 1000 yuan worth of carrefour voucher card from my company annual dinner, I think my luck is turning to great. I have never won such great prizes before.)

I only have 5 small wishes for 2009. I hope they will all come true.

Meanwhile, I have been reading Mitch Albom's books a lot these days. Some I bought from MPH at KL, some I bought at amazon.cn, and I also bought 1 from road-side pasar-malam type stall, only selling at RMB 10! (brand new) If you only have time to read just one book from him, try "Tuesday with Morrie", it's a great book written with soul and real emotion. I cried uncontrollably at the end of the chapters.

Looking forward to the new year trip with hubby, and also the CNY trip:) And, have just promised my sister, we shall go for a family trip on CNY 2010.

Cheers everyone. 明天会更更好！

Bakery Shop

No matter how busy I am lately, I still noticed there is this breadshop called 85度C opened up downstairs my office. CBN Weekly once have an article write up about this bakery cum coffee shop, as direct competitor of Starbucks. I think it is wrong. If starbucks have 1/10 of the crowd inside this 85度C, starbucks ceo will be laughing his way to bank everyday. haha..

Anyway, before this 85度C appeared, my office lot already have 2 breadshop, and they are really good taste and quality. They are:

1) Ichido

Very good quality bread, good cake, premium pricing. The only thing bad about it is, the paying Q is always super long!!! Really can pengsan waiting just to pay money. Sigh.

2) wowa

Very good quality bread also, great cake, no line up at Q. But, the only bad thing is, it is across the street from my office, so have to cross the busy street. And it's really dangerous to cross that road..

And now, we have:

3) 85度C

Someone bought it's cheesecake and belanja us makan yesterday. It tastes so good!!! And by the time I get off work, I wanted to go into this breadshop which is just downstairs the office, I saw super duper long Q, just to wait to pay money. Aiyo yo... can't they just opened few more counters?? Really beh tahan the service here sometimes..

I want to say, China has really good quality bakery/cheesecake/cake. I really falling love with them~:) Yay, one more choice for breakfast now =) And choi, 85度C ain't competitors of starbucks lah. They are totally different level~

So So So busy... why?!

Esok lah

More than 3000 China citizens were trapped in Bangkok airport during the 政治动乱 last couple of weeks. And within few days, China government sent more than 10 aircraft 包机 send back those worried visitors. They all came back last week already, after much hassle in applying permit landing at that airport for those chinese aircraft.

There are 5000+ British trapped in that airport too, until last night (unless the documentary show I watched is outdated, which I doubted so), the British government still did nothing.

Then I asked Jay, what if 3000 Malaysian were trapped in China, would our dearest government send some MAS to fetch us back?

Do you know how Jay asnwered? He said, the government sure reply "esok lah, jom makan sekarang." And "esok" will be the answers in the later days til when it is about election time, maybe they will send someone to fetch us back and try to con our vote during that 5 hours flight with nasi lemak and teh tarik.

Yew... the more I think about it, the more I can picture it could actually be happening.

I suddenly feel Chinese citizen is very 幸福...

Chaos in Airport

I was supposed to attend a Media Plan Release by UYoung today in Beijing, they going to up a parenting channel on IPTV, supposed to be a very "in" thing in next 12 months. Anyway, the conference was 2-4pm today. So, during such cost-cutting period, I also sek joh, make it a day trip, and woke up at blardy 6am, because the flight was at 9am, China Eastern Airline.

Check-in, custom clearance, custom checking, all went through so smoothly, I was starting to think "wow, this is not bad... i really start to like china a lot nowadays."

8.30am -- seated, seat-belt tightened, and I was catching some time to finish off my CBN Weekly magazine.

9.00am -- still in seat, but the crew seems very calm, and as "usual", there's announcement "due to air traffic control, we are asked to wait for turns to fly out. Please be patient."

9.30am -- flight attendants started to offer hot bun (inside got char siu some more, i must admit it was very tasty), tea, coffee, water. Actually, by now, I am very suspicious already, for 2 reasons: 1) I am seating at window seat, so I can see the so-called "air traffic" was not so congested. Not many flight flying in or leaving airport actually. 2) normally when they are not sure when can they fly out due to air traffic control, they will not offer HOT drinks. Because once they were told can fly out, they must immediately prepare for taxing and the air stewardess sure not enough time to collect back the cups and make sure ALL passengers finished their hot drinks, because if not, it will be very dangerous when the plan is taking off and u still drinking hot drink.

10.00am -- I dozed off, after a nice char siu bun, and hot tea.

10.15am -- the plane moved out from the lane, YAY!! I was happy, means can take off soon, and although late for 1.15am, I can still make it to 2pm meeting.

10.20am -- waiting at taxing lane. I dozed off again.

10.40am -- the plan was back to the parking spot again! Some passengers was joking, yelling, "we reached Beijing already?" So funny. But then we were so shocked to hear another anouncement from the captain, "Dear passengers, we discovered aircraft got technical problem during taxing time, so please get all your belongings and leave the aircraft now."

So, earlier blardy simi air-traffic control was bullshit lah. HMMPH!

We left the aircraft, some more need to take the big bus, brought us back to main terminal. whole flight I think got 200++ people, and only 2 crews were there to asnwer question. I wonder why can't they make explanation through the microphone instead of just answer each angry passenger's questions in mandarin and shanghainese (why mandarin and shanghainese only? because those able to fight through the crowd to infront are shanghainese, they their voice are loud so their questions were heard even though they were behind). The flight also got Indian, Guai Low, and I think Japanese. They all have question marks on their face because during such chaos time, no one speak to them in english at all. The indian was a bit impatient, he yelled at the crew in front, "what's going on?" the crew answered him back, "just wait" and continued to yell at other passenger in shanghainese and mandarin. Can you believe this???

I was so shocked.

Finally, some non-chinese reminded the crew, they can speak through microphone so all passengers can know what is next step. "Next flight is coming in at 12.00, you can board at 12.15pm." But yet, the announcement was not made in English.

Niasing, if I board at 12.15pm, reach beijing already what, 3.30pm? reach my meeting place, the whole conference already finished!! I quickly called my boss to tell him I ain't going to Beijing, no point. Luckily I didn't have luggage checked-in so I just leave the airport swiftly, and back to office.

Anyway, now that I am back in office, thinking through the whole thing, I think the crews need to really be trained to react in such critical time. Hey, 2010 Shanghai Expo is coming soon. At least you need to admit that there's a growing population in Shanghai that is foreigners and they are not good at chinese needless to say shanghainese language. Imagine if you are in Brazil, something happen, and you not sure what's going on because everyone is speaking in brazilian language, won't you feel confused?? I think also feel quite pah pah already.

China Eastern Airline, I ain't gonna take your airline in next 6 months!

I am still busy!

There are so many things going on in my life lately:-

1) company axing people in Asia (not in china though)... made me think twice about getting the Wii Fit & the Wii machine. Better safe money than spend money nowadays?

2) adjusting pricing because everything is going to be UP UP UP to secure MC (...painful exercise)

3) talking deals with many players for co-partnership activity- who say economy is that bad??

4) meeting so many magazine people and all they care about "has your next year budget been fixed? any plan?" .... I so busy doing this and that, and all they care is about new deal.. #$%!

5) having cat fight with a bitch in mala office, but she is coming to shanghai office to work (but not working for shanghai office, ain't this weird??). I have never see such double personality creature in this world. Her existence in shanghai office will be eventful to me, according to Purple Mushroom.. You can never believe what that unprofessional creature has done to me.. sigh. Her boss is blind, thought she so great so great. Please ask her colleague to rate her (me!!) and I will tell you her true color!

6) changing new laptop at work - good and bad. New one weigh so much heavier with wider screen... but the speed is definitely faster than my old ones. haha

7) attending classes in gym. Went to a "Body Pump" class, and it made me walk like old-po-po for 4 days!! But I went to the class again yesterday (after resting 1 full week last week), and I realized my muscels get used to the torture, not so painful for second round!

8) train up my new assistant. Hmm... this one I will comment later. She deserve some time to get used to Marketing role so I don't blame her. But I like her attitude, on day 1, i told her, "I can accept you making mistakes, but I cannot accept you made mistake but not admitting it and push the blame to other people." So, she made a stupid mistake yesterday, but she come to me to shy shy admit, so I told her it's OK. It's really OK for a junior to make such mistake, and from her pai seh look, I bet she will not repeat such mistake next time.

I am still busy!!!!!!!

p/s: for those who know which company i working for, please... please... keep my company name a secret by NOT mentioning it.

Busy...

Have been so busy lately at work. Everywhere is in recession, but China seems quite resistant and thus bosses require us to do so much. Arghh..

Speaking of recession, when will it hit China? Quite scary seeing everywhere in recession but Chinaman still eating lobster, 10 course meal, drink frantically on baijiue.. all these still indicate business is still good!

Have been attending 8.30am meeting so many days already... I am so tired of work..

Anyway, we have been going to gym lately, trying to get a healthy lifestyle. Yesterday was the second time I on the "crazy bike". I nearly died on the bike after 10 minutes riding frantically with the rocking music. So, half way i came out from the class, really cannot tahan. And i sweat like a pig.

I realized I am not good at "pattern" or "left right" coordination. I cannot do dance, cannot do steps, cannot do those things that require left right thingy in some pattern way. I will get tangled up halfway. I also went to the "stepping class" last night with Jay. When I turned around and see Jay (he was behind me), I feel like laughing and I cannot concentrate on the steps anymore. He is so funnny. When people already doing step D, he still on step A. And people on right side, he turn left side. But he is so persistent and determined! He finished the whole class. hahahaa... I am so bad, laugh at him non-stop =) Although I am also not good at the class, but at least when people at step B, I am at step A only. kekekkee...

p/s: seems like "crazy bike" is the only class I can join... other class all required pattern, left-right coordination. I tak boleh!

Blessed

I wasn't feeling well over the weekend, and Jay offered to cook again! (yah, 2 weeks ago he cooked too). And he is getting pretty good at cooking some of the dishes I think =)

I feel so touched. And during the time when I am unwell, he didn't give me pressure at all. He some more joke with me, made me laugh, and just doing the normal thing. (pressure, I mean he not asking me "u ok?" like every 10 minutes, trust me, i know someone's hubby is this psycho when the wife fall sick ok)

I know some part of my life, I feel I am not blessed. But I must say I am extremely thankful and blessed with Jay in my life:)

A letter to daddy

Jiuzhaigou trip, with Jay, Aigie and her hubby Chau On.

Oct 1-5.

As I was enjoying the spectacular view there, I can't stop asking myself, if this close to heaven's look? Then my dad should be at this kind of environment? So nice... no wonder he doesn't even care to pay me a visit in my dream...

I prayed to God, "if you see my dad, can you ask him to visit me for once in my dream? I have so many things want to tell him and ask him... "

Sometimes I wonder what is my daddy doing in another part of the world... happier I hope, no more stress, no more cheating by people, no more worldly stuff eh? Would he still have memory of us? He can't forget us right? We are going to be re-united one day (oh yes, I believe this)... would he still do the silly face to me at that time? And do the silly dance?

Daddy, your student Hii, Yong, Jung, they really treat you like their father. They helped us settled a lot of things, sold off your fixture in Terengganu and even brought the money collected from selling to mom. Mom saw the money, cried again. I think partyly is because she misses you very much, but greater part is, she is so proud of you, to have such great students that honor, respect, and treat you like their father. They also drove back your car to KL, filled the gas tank to fullest, and not accepting any money from us. You other students (I forgot their name), folded your clothes so nicely. Batik clothes are so difficult to be folded but they really did a good job. Your student Yong, can see he is quite a timid guy, but he brave up himself and gave a speech during your memorial, telling everyone how proud they are to have you as their professor, and without your guidance and advice, they couldn't have made it this far. One of your student even joked about how you race him with "throwing coconut" competition and you always can throw so far they really wonder why you have that kind of strength. And what fills me with tears is that, all of your colleagues, students mentioned to us, how often you mentioned about us to them, "my eldest daughter, she did her MBA! I am so proud of her!"; "my eldest daughter, now work in Shanghai leh! Metropolitan city!"; "my son, he is doing his phD now! I am so proud of him!"; "my youngest daughter, she is the best, she drove me around whenever I needed her, after my eldest daughter not in KL.. and she always dabao my favorite food!"; ... so many, so many ...

So daddy, I want to tell you, you really live your life to fullest, although it's not that long, but you have made so much impact on so many people's life!! Many people come to the memorial that day... and during the chu-bin day, I thought only relatives came, but your students, your best friends & colleagues, they all came to send you off daddy. It's so touching to see so many people care about you and respect you.

Oh and daddy, your sisters Peggy & Jenny, although in the past few years you guys stopped talking to each other because of some misunderstanding, they came to hospital visit you every day. And they cried so much, I think because they regret not treating you well as a big brother. Your missing little brother Ah Weng, he also came after disappeared so many years. So daddy, you do have a supportive family and they are regretting now. Daddy, can you forgive them? Ah Sok, as an adult man, I saw him cried uncontrollable for few times. I guess he loves you, just doesn't know how to express, you know lah, you Law family, all men is not good at speech:)

Daddy, mom still cries very often... if you really can read my letter, please comfort her in whatever ways you can because we really don't know how to make her feel better. She really loves you deeply. We know you love her deeply too.

So Daddy, this is the things I wanted to tell you 2 months+ ago, but now only I get the courage to write it down. Daddy, we are so proud of you! If there's a rewind function that I can press, I will still want you to be my daddy, except that I will be a better daughter. Sorry that sometimes I have bad temper and always quarrel with you on lousy things, I hope you know it's because I inherited your temper.. I love you greatly, you know..

Daddy, til we meet again, may you find peace in God.. and I pray to God He will deliver this letter to you...

-love,

xiao dai.

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This is what one gets when they do nothing but hands itchy.. and not doing office work at 2.34pm... good, very good.... (dai sei)

Age advanced, but Friendship never changed

If my dearest KL girl friends are reading this, sorry gals, for posting so late.

How would life be without you girls? =)

Siew Wai put chocolate onto her lips as lipstick.... keke... and then, out of no where she said, "我真不舍得离开你们一刻钟...."just when we feel so lum with her sentence, she finished it off with "..去大便", yah, because of long travel from Singapore to KL by bus, she didn't have chance to go toilet that whole day. hehhee...


That's her socks. Ain't it looked cute!

We had great dessert time together, Lizzie always know where to bring us for great dessert! yay. We talked about facial, pimples, 排毒, wrinkles, losing hair due to too frequent coloring, facial products from New York, 羊胎素, losing privacy at home because house is too small, and many more women talk. Guess with our age grade advancing, our conversation has moved to next level eh? hehehe... but one thing never changed, we still seem to be able to spend half day at Sungai Wang, buying stuff ranging from 炬油帽，Kerastase hair-conditioner, nail polisher, camera, almost bought bolster, hhehee.. yah, our bought list consists of weird range =) It was also very fun with 3 sopoh sitting in a car, with Sheau Huey driving the car but not knowing KL road very well, and the person who supposed to give direction, end up telling us the truth that "I saw that road sign some where near Ah Gong's place before". We almost ended up at our high-school intead of the high-tea house, but, Yee Ling's brother saved us at the end, giving direction over the phone. Hooray!

Girls, those are great great great memory to be simpan for long long time!


为我们的友谊万岁而欢呼！(...sounds like really "localized" phrase...)

Hairy Crab session with mom

After I told mom how tasty is hairy crab, and how disappointed I felt when I had the meat crab in KL lately (all the time I eating that meat crab, I am picturing the hairy crab... the feeling is very "having-affair" I guess), mom decided to try on hairy crab in Shanghai.

Last week, I was calling some restaurant, "do you have hairy crab yet?" Most answers are "not yet", some even if they have it, they sell it very expensive! It's not that I ku-hon on the money it's just I feel it's not worth it to spend that much on hairy crab when it is not really the season yet. I rather spend that money to eat fat fat haircy crab one month later when the season is more right, than spend so much now at skinny hairy crab.

So, I decided to explore carrefour near my house.

They have it at 3 price range! 128, 98, and 12.80 (all price is on basis of per 500gram). I picked 128, coz the rest are too skinny, no meat!

And then, because it's the first time I am going to kill hairy crab and put into our stomach, I am not sure if I can do it right, so I only bought 2 male hairy crab. I pointed at those that have bubbles coming out from their mouth, and asked the carrefour helper to wrap them up in plastic bag.

So, I went home, and wash them with toothbrush.

And then, I called up Aigie what to put (just ginger), how to steam (just like how you steam pao), and steam for how long (Aigie said 20 min, I think it's too long, I just steamed for 15 min).

And then... ta-da!!!!!!!!!

It was so tasty!!!! I cannot believe my mom is so pandai to eat, she said she agrees with me, it's tastier than meat crab!!! hohohoho... bui bui was rather disgusted at the fact that both of me and mom find hairy crab so tasty. He still cannot get over the thought that they have fur on their kiam and legs. hahahah... Mom and I were discussing what's the most efficient way to suck the meat from their legs, and bui bui just looked at us as if we were from Mars. =)

We regretted we only bought 2. If we were to know that it is so easy to cook them, I would have bought more!!

The next morning, mom told me she dreamt that she still eating hairy crab! hahahhaa =)

Now that I know how to cook them, I am going to buy MORE hairy crabs in another month's time, when the season is more right! yay!!!

More Photos..

I love this picture
Aigie said we have similar facial expression and gesture =) 夫妻相？
Me & Mama
Me & Aigie

Beijing trip with mom, Jay, Aigie & her hubby Chau On

在北京长城的一端纪念着我的父亲。

想健康快乐，就这么难么？

最近祸不单行，没有吃鱼，也会喉咙掐到东西（一次性筷子的竹削），上周四晚上又上医院把它拿出来，回到家已快11点了。

昨天，喉咙怪怪的，不痛，但是觉得有东西附在上面。没有办法，又去医院。去之前给我一个好友善诗打了一个电话问她这样会不会死的？大概她觉得我讲没两句就哭了很没有用，就自告奋勇的说陪我去医院看医生吧。但是她的条件是，给她半小时冲凉。

在那个半小时里，我在想，怎么最近就这么多事情，是不是我的祖宗造孽太深，由我们家来还？老爸还没有来得及做化疗，竟然得了肺炎又进医院。我听了很心酸。想象着他咳得死去活来的影响，我不禁又流泪。想想好友的老爸是心脏病去的，竟然羡慕起来。心脏病，来的快，去的快，来不及伤心，已经身后事都搞好了。对任何一个人都没有多大的心理、身体上的痛苦。

45分钟后，我和她在医院会面。医生照了一下，说是慢性炎，有很多像米粒的分泌物在壁上。善诗说我的喉咙，从倒后镜看（她整个过程都在医生的背后一起观看我的喉咙），真的凹凸不平，很wut dut. 医生后来还拿了个钳子，对我说“会有一点难受，坚持一下哦。”，也真的很难受。但是在难受的同时，我想起我爸正在承受比我这个更难受1000倍的过程，我竟然又禁不住流泪，很心痛。

想健康快乐，就这么难么？

God... are you listening to my prayer recently?

At age of 12, I used to think the worst thing that could happen to me, is to fail UPSR. But thank God I passed with flying colors.

At age of 18, I used to think the worst thing that could happen to me, is not able to go to the right university, and end up at those cheap-plak uni. Thank God, I got into the well-known university, at a great living place like Vancouver.

At age of 22, I used to think the worst thing that could happen to me, is not able to get into a well-known corporate, getting a great pay-cheque. Thank God, I got what I want. And at that point, I really think my pay is quite good for a start.

At age of 27, I used to think the worst thing that could happen to me, is not able to meet my Mr. Right. Thank God, I met my hubby in my mid-27. He is really my Mr Right, loving and caring and accept who I am.

Now, at age of 32, the worst thing had happened. My dad was diagnosed with colon cancer, last stage.

My life in the past 2+weeks was totally upside down. There isn't one day that I haven't been crying. I tried to act positive and strong in front of my mom, and so, I only cry when I was alone. Some terrible thing has happened to my dearest dad. He was diagnosed to have sigmoid colon cancer, last stage. Yah, the most words I ever used in the past 2 weeks+ are: 'cancer', 'last stage', and of course, 'chemo'.

It all started when he had headache for days and he went to see doc, and he also complaint about his toilet habit has changed since Feb. Doc did a brief scan and found some mass on his lower abdomen. He flew back from Terengganu to KL on the very same night, and see specialist the next day. He was then hospitalized.

On first day he was hospitalized, I prayed he will be fine and the biomass they saw on scan is a mistake. When he was hospitalized and they found that both of his kidney was swollen a bit, I prayed that nothing was wrong with his kidney and it's just normal for people who are aging. When the doc told us he has to put a tube on his kidney the next day because according to his analysis, my dad kidney was blocked, I prayed that the operation is a success and I told myself it is OK, it's just a tube. Then on Friday afternoon, they came back with blood test result and colon-scopic result, and found out he has cancer and they need to remove the tumor. I prayed that it's only a good tumor, and it's nothing serious. But they then announced that it's spreading like a carpet inside his stomach, and that's 4th stage, he only has 3 months left if he doesn't remove the tumor. I almost fainted. I questioned God. Why is he not satisfied with my smaller and simpler wish each day??

My hubby good fren Eric picked me up from the airport, and drove me to the hospital. I saw my dad in ICU, with so many tubes pocking through his vain, and many wires pocking his skin to take different sort of readings. He just came out from the major operation. I have never see my dad so weak, so fragile, so thin, and hair so grey. I broke into tears. Even in such condition, he hold my hand, and said "I am fine" in weak tone. Never in my life I felt so heart broke. It's such a torture for him to go through this.

My dad spent his Father's Day in ICU this year. No cake, no celebration. His blood pressure was very high after the operation.

And my mom was so weak. She cries everyday at home, refused to eat, and cannot sleep. She kept thinking why this kind of thing can happen to such a good man, a man who has never cheated country (never cheat on tax, never have unpaid saman), who has helped so many people in his life (he helped his student to get into good job by recommendation), who always donate money to different organization to help disabled & poor, who always provide the best thing to his family while he himself just live a plain life, and, who has just retired 4 months ago, haven't even started to enjoy life.

Whenever I think of what my mom said, i cannot help feeling sorry to my dad too. So, I tried not to dwell too much on what my mom said. And tried to cheer her up, encourage her to think positive, and make sure she take every meal.

Then do you know what doctor told me? He told me, even my dad went through chemo therapy, he can just be prolonged another 1 year. He just said it like he was talking to someone who sells vegetable to him in the market. Plainless expression. The doc even told me before he eventually die, he will suffer a lot of pain and only morfein can help him. He said morfein can help him die with dignity. I really hate this doctor. I cannot understand these doctors, how can they just say things like that. How can they be so negative? But later on, I roughly can understand. They probably don't have anyone they love to go through all these.

After 2 days ICU and 7 days general ward, my dad finally can come home to rest. The wounded area was still painful, but it was getting better everyday. It's still so difficult to even think that my dad might leave us within 12 months. Whenever I think of this, I feel painful too. The even more painful thought is, would I be able to fly back on time to see him before he die?? It takes half a day to travel from SH to KL!

But I am so glad my dad is such a strong person. He is positive. He kept saying he will fight through this. He still wants to come to Shanghai to visit me later this year. And he has promised mom last time to bring her to Europe. He said "hopefully I can still fulfill my promise"...

It's sore, it's helpless. Only miracle and God can help my dad. I prayed a lot nowadays, and I really hope God is listening, and continue to give me strength and hope. And I hope I can get leave and go back for his 1st chemo treatment.

p/s: I am also glad I have a very understanding manager. Although I used up my AL already, she said she has no problem to approve my leave whenever I need to apply to go back see my dad.

生活是不公平的

原来，拥有健康的生活习惯：不抽烟、不喝酒、不赌、不嫖，并不代表你能有很快乐的生活，也不代表能有良好的健康。

活得这么拘谨干嘛？？？？尽情地抽烟、喝酒、赌、嫖吧！说不定你能快快乐乐地活上100岁！

Excellent!

I wrote an email to my boss:

"I don't think I can work with XXX. To me, she has attitude problem (never admit own mistake), take no initiative at work (go out store visit, I have to ask her to take photos everytime, if not she just wont take), and make mistakes. And I pointed out for her, she still think she is correct, with lots of excuses.

Maybe she is very good while working for you. But to me, she cannot live up to my expectation.
Also, I don't think it is fair to judge my leadership skill on just one assistant like her.

If you ask me now, I like very much to fire her. BUt I know some how this is not possible. So, please change someone to replace her. I cannot work with her."

Boss immediately have a word with me. She said she knows about this, that bitch already complaint to her.

They have a solution, replace her with someone. I already know who is that someone, I am SO HAPPY that it is someone whom I can work comfortably with! yay!! But bad thing is, transition takes 2 months ++.

My assistant must be really like this company, until already at this stage, still don't want to leave but rather company move her around like a piece of shit. I asked my manager why cannot fire her? My manager said, "unless u can prove that she did a BIG mistake, we cannot simply fire someone. And, there's no absolute right or wrong at workplace." In another word, cannot fire people.

Makes me realized that no matter what mistake I did, slack off, don't do work, company won't fire me one, coz this is the culture. The worst is u stay where u are and no promotion only.

Anyway, I am HAPPY!!!!!!:)

Fuck her big bor!

I am very blessed to have a hubby like J. He really knows when to support me, when to scold the asshole together with me, and when to keep mouth shut when I am in "bitching" mode.

Yesterday, after work, I met him downstairs. As soon as he saw my sour face, he said, "what's wrong babe? is it she again?"

I said, "That blardy lazy ass!! Not only she cannot do work properly, she also wear tight t-shirt to show her fat mitchelin body shape and her BOR!!!! She even purposely unbutton the first 2 button to show her BIG BOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Hubby, "yah, fuck her big bor!"

Although he just cakap cakap saja, the way he make the comment just to make me feel better and laugh out, is really cute.

After laughing, I forgot about that asshole.

I am really blessed to have him with me:)

p/s: I know I shouldn't have made such comment about her body shape. But you have to agree that when you dislike someone to a certain extent, even a small thing made by that person make u pissed off to the roof. HA!

More nia sing about assistant!

I cannot take it anymore, and thus, I had a word with my assistant this morning.

She was face black black for the whole time I talking to her, head bowed down, not even want to look at me.

I pointed her careless mistakes in her work, my expectations, and her shortfall. For everything I pointed out, she got excuse to tell me. And if I probed further of her excuse, her excuse could not stand.

Then I asked her does she has anything want to say or not. She said no. I said then why face black black? She said, "you think only. I did not". NIA SING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I tell her company gave her pay rise is not for nothing. You have to work, not slack off. Then she said she is working very hard. She has too much on hand to do. I then said, "if you think u are over-load, then tell me. Please tell me which part of your work is overloaded, I can ask 3rd party to do for you." She replied with silence.

NIA SING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really wish to kick her out!!! Can somoene tell me why my company never fire people??!! Even they are rubbish????!!!!!!

I am so pissed at her.

p/s: I think I am the first one who blog about how I dislike about my assistant instead of boss. ARGH!!!!!