Jiuzhaigou trip, with Jay, Aigie and her hubby Chau On.
Oct 1-5.
As I was enjoying the spectacular view there, I can't stop asking myself, if this close to heaven's look? Then my dad should be at this kind of environment? So nice... no wonder he doesn't even care to pay me a visit in my dream...
I prayed to God, "if you see my dad, can you ask him to visit me for once in my dream? I have so many things want to tell him and ask him... "
Sometimes I wonder what is my daddy doing in another part of the world... happier I hope, no more stress, no more cheating by people, no more worldly stuff eh? Would he still have memory of us? He can't forget us right? We are going to be re-united one day (oh yes, I believe this)... would he still do the silly face to me at that time? And do the silly dance?
Daddy, your student Hii, Yong, Jung, they really treat you like their father. They helped us settled a lot of things, sold off your fixture in Terengganu and even brought the money collected from selling to mom. Mom saw the money, cried again. I think partyly is because she misses you very much, but greater part is, she is so proud of you, to have such great students that honor, respect, and treat you like their father. They also drove back your car to KL, filled the gas tank to fullest, and not accepting any money from us. You other students (I forgot their name), folded your clothes so nicely. Batik clothes are so difficult to be folded but they really did a good job. Your student Yong, can see he is quite a timid guy, but he brave up himself and gave a speech during your memorial, telling everyone how proud they are to have you as their professor, and without your guidance and advice, they couldn't have made it this far. One of your student even joked about how you race him with "throwing coconut" competition and you always can throw so far they really wonder why you have that kind of strength. And what fills me with tears is that, all of your colleagues, students mentioned to us, how often you mentioned about us to them, "my eldest daughter, she did her MBA! I am so proud of her!"; "my eldest daughter, now work in Shanghai leh! Metropolitan city!"; "my son, he is doing his phD now! I am so proud of him!"; "my youngest daughter, she is the best, she drove me around whenever I needed her, after my eldest daughter not in KL.. and she always dabao my favorite food!"; ... so many, so many ...
So daddy, I want to tell you, you really live your life to fullest, although it's not that long, but you have made so much impact on so many people's life!! Many people come to the memorial that day... and during the chu-bin day, I thought only relatives came, but your students, your best friends & colleagues, they all came to send you off daddy. It's so touching to see so many people care about you and respect you.
Oh and daddy, your sisters Peggy & Jenny, although in the past few years you guys stopped talking to each other because of some misunderstanding, they came to hospital visit you every day. And they cried so much, I think because they regret not treating you well as a big brother. Your missing little brother Ah Weng, he also came after disappeared so many years. So daddy, you do have a supportive family and they are regretting now. Daddy, can you forgive them? Ah Sok, as an adult man, I saw him cried uncontrollable for few times. I guess he loves you, just doesn't know how to express, you know lah, you Law family, all men is not good at speech:)
Daddy, mom still cries very often... if you really can read my letter, please comfort her in whatever ways you can because we really don't know how to make her feel better. She really loves you deeply. We know you love her deeply too.
So Daddy, this is the things I wanted to tell you 2 months+ ago, but now only I get the courage to write it down. Daddy, we are so proud of you! If there's a rewind function that I can press, I will still want you to be my daddy, except that I will be a better daughter. Sorry that sometimes I have bad temper and always quarrel with you on lousy things, I hope you know it's because I inherited your temper.. I love you greatly, you know..
Daddy, til we meet again, may you find peace in God.. and I pray to God He will deliver this letter to you...
-love,
As I was enjoying the spectacular view there, I can't stop asking myself, if this close to heaven's look? Then my dad should be at this kind of environment? So nice... no wonder he doesn't even care to pay me a visit in my dream...
I prayed to God, "if you see my dad, can you ask him to visit me for once in my dream? I have so many things want to tell him and ask him... "
Sometimes I wonder what is my daddy doing in another part of the world... happier I hope, no more stress, no more cheating by people, no more worldly stuff eh? Would he still have memory of us? He can't forget us right? We are going to be re-united one day (oh yes, I believe this)... would he still do the silly face to me at that time? And do the silly dance?
Daddy, your student Hii, Yong, Jung, they really treat you like their father. They helped us settled a lot of things, sold off your fixture in Terengganu and even brought the money collected from selling to mom. Mom saw the money, cried again. I think partyly is because she misses you very much, but greater part is, she is so proud of you, to have such great students that honor, respect, and treat you like their father. They also drove back your car to KL, filled the gas tank to fullest, and not accepting any money from us. You other students (I forgot their name), folded your clothes so nicely. Batik clothes are so difficult to be folded but they really did a good job. Your student Yong, can see he is quite a timid guy, but he brave up himself and gave a speech during your memorial, telling everyone how proud they are to have you as their professor, and without your guidance and advice, they couldn't have made it this far. One of your student even joked about how you race him with "throwing coconut" competition and you always can throw so far they really wonder why you have that kind of strength. And what fills me with tears is that, all of your colleagues, students mentioned to us, how often you mentioned about us to them, "my eldest daughter, she did her MBA! I am so proud of her!"; "my eldest daughter, now work in Shanghai leh! Metropolitan city!"; "my son, he is doing his phD now! I am so proud of him!"; "my youngest daughter, she is the best, she drove me around whenever I needed her, after my eldest daughter not in KL.. and she always dabao my favorite food!"; ... so many, so many ...
So daddy, I want to tell you, you really live your life to fullest, although it's not that long, but you have made so much impact on so many people's life!! Many people come to the memorial that day... and during the chu-bin day, I thought only relatives came, but your students, your best friends & colleagues, they all came to send you off daddy. It's so touching to see so many people care about you and respect you.
Oh and daddy, your sisters Peggy & Jenny, although in the past few years you guys stopped talking to each other because of some misunderstanding, they came to hospital visit you every day. And they cried so much, I think because they regret not treating you well as a big brother. Your missing little brother Ah Weng, he also came after disappeared so many years. So daddy, you do have a supportive family and they are regretting now. Daddy, can you forgive them? Ah Sok, as an adult man, I saw him cried uncontrollable for few times. I guess he loves you, just doesn't know how to express, you know lah, you Law family, all men is not good at speech:)
Daddy, mom still cries very often... if you really can read my letter, please comfort her in whatever ways you can because we really don't know how to make her feel better. She really loves you deeply. We know you love her deeply too.
So Daddy, this is the things I wanted to tell you 2 months+ ago, but now only I get the courage to write it down. Daddy, we are so proud of you! If there's a rewind function that I can press, I will still want you to be my daddy, except that I will be a better daughter. Sorry that sometimes I have bad temper and always quarrel with you on lousy things, I hope you know it's because I inherited your temper.. I love you greatly, you know..
Daddy, til we meet again, may you find peace in God.. and I pray to God He will deliver this letter to you...
-love,
xiao dai.
4 comments:
I cried reading this... don't know what to say...
take care babe...
Your father will be very proud of you if he does read this letter in heaven.
It's a really beautifully written letter to your father. It reminds me that I have not really spoken much to my dad for the past few years. It also reminded me of how much he loves me.
I was in tears from the beginning till the end. I wish that your mom will find the inner peace that she deserves to have. Your dad will be able to read this, I'm sure.
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