父亲的生祭

今天是我父亲的生祭。

特想念他。

想到他时还是会眼浅，这个毛病都不知道什么时候可以停止。有时候怪尴尬的。在吉隆坡我们一个特好的朋友注册礼那天，新郎Eric介绍了他老婆的一个朋友给我们认识，说以前是我父亲的学生，我的眼即刻就浅了，很努力的想着其他开心的事情来停止这尴尬的局面，幸好就一下子而已，然后话题转移我才逃过 (Eric, if you are reading... sorry leh... that day almost 坏你好事，呵呵）。

就是放不下，生老病死是自然的循环，可是当发生在你亲人的身上，就是很难跨过，要多少年才可以放下呢？

以前我们都还很小的时候，父亲生日我们都会自做生日卡，里面写满傻傻肉麻的东西。后来大了，宁愿花钱买卡也不要自己设计，真现实，肉麻的东西越写越少。不知道其他人是不是也这样的呢？然后再大一点，赚钱了，卡里就会塞红包，父亲看到红包，也不管里面多少钱，就会像小孩子一般咧着嘴巴满足的笑，还要求我们每人给他一个腮吻，然后他再回一个。年年如此。真希望时光能到流，让我再看一次父亲咧着嘴巴傻笑的样子，然后再在他的脸上亲一个。

爸，卡、红包、吻今天都给不了你了，希望你在天之灵，天天都快乐！

it's strange that even though it is I am at western time, all the important dates I "remember" are all asia time....

First post in 2012

I am back~~~~~

The jet lag is very annoying. I felt so drained out by 8.30pm every night for the past 2 weeks. And the long haul flight is so scary... 12 hours in a closed cabin is just too long to stay sane. I am not kidding. Both Jay and I are not planning any long haul trip for the next 12 months, unless my sister is getting married in Dec (I begged her please NOT this year~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 可怜可怜你姐！)

So, what did I achieve this trip back to KL? I spent time with my mom and sis, that's the most precious achievement. I didn't really go out see many friends. Those that I went out to see are those who really tracked me down with all means, if not, I really lazy to make arrangement. Sorry kawan-kawan, your friend me is getting old... lazy to plan and think ahead. hehehe... next time babes~~~ next time.. I didn't even go on facebook for the whole duration! Some achievements eh? hahaha... and then I make a trip down to see my uncle and his family in Singapore, day trip.. sob sob... there really is not a lot of time. I hari hari like go to war, do all the official things related to government stuff and banking during Mon-Fri, and then have to split the trip in half to Muar and KL leh... and then Bui is aji ajo-ing already, he said I split the half not really half one, I pian xin, I put more weight on KL and only 30% on muar. hahahahaa... I think he is quite pissed off at me after he realized it but then too late, arrangement has been made. Well, perhaps next time we will just separate - he goes muar, I stays at KL. But then I miss the baby girl her brother has at muar... she is so cute!!!

Anyway, here I am, back to this lousy lalaland... snowing today... make it even more lousy. I really start not to like this place very much. Things are getting more expensive. Government wants to raise the public transport fees by 13%, and the healthcare monthly installment is raised by 7%. Sometimes I just want to give them my whole pay cheque and tell them go to hell. Anyway.... if summer is not coming soon, I think I will be cursing very very soon again~~~ ARGHH!!!!

Then YVR airport has the most stringent custom in this whole big world. They just want to catch you in every little thing. I read the declaration form about the definition of "food", it says something meat.. with seads... plants.. things like that. So we brought instant coffee, one pack of instant noodle, tea leafs, cookies (CNY mah). So I clicked NO on declaration form. It is really a NO if I follow the "food" definition. But according to the officer, they are considered food. Of course they are food, we put them into mouth and consume, but it was not the "food" as you layout on the form. But of course I dare not say like that. I just keep quiet. And then she said, "Just remember to say Yes next time if you bring them in again next time. Welcome home." The last phrase "welcome home" is really warm... But then I got home and realized our passports are not stamped. I am very very worried she forgot to stamp, but I can't do anything now. Wait see how next time. They always surprises us with the mistake they make. Don't make me start on the income tax mistakes they made last year.... Think of it also make me older by 2 years.... sigh...

I need summer to cheer me  up!!!!!! My brother is getting married in May in San Frans, so that's something I look forward to.

ngiaooooooooooooooooooo

p/s: on a happy note - I bought a new Lumix camera. yay!! And I was planning to declare it but it was not asked for. Hmm.................... why why why??