Depressing mode

As the 1 year anniversary draw nearer and nearer, I kept flashing back, what was I doing 1 year ago?

1 year ago I still have my dad, alive, not sick, but I didn't try to call him and talk to him more. It was just like normal old days, I spoke to him only when he was at home and answered the phone when I was calling mom. Whenever I have things not going my way, I told my mom, and my mom told my dad, and he will text me with comforting words. I took those sms as granted, I never saved any of them, I deleted them. How regretful I feel now.

I still remember last year in June, I was frantically preparing for the local VIP show. And suddenly things happened, phone calls ringing, and it ruined my life. I still remember how I broke into tears when I asking for few hours off from work from my manager because I need to go buy air ticket to fly off next day, and how good my manager was, she told me don't worry about work, she can cover for me on the whole VIP show preparation.

I still remember that night, I almost wet my whole pillow because I cannot stop crying. And Jay was in his U.S. trip. I was dealing all these alone.

I still remember how I have to turn down Nicole's invitation to her house to eat dinner because her mom was cooking.

I still remember I was texting my dad that night, but forgot that he was too weak to have the phone with him. My sister brought his phone back to house. Anyway, he couldn't have used the phone because he was in ICU the next day, after the big operation, which is a mistaken operation. Many times I wonder, what if he didn't go through that operation, would he have lived more months. And the KK Foo that was the surgeon, I can still remember how unprofessional he was, in dealing with my questions, at that emotional stage, and how he showed his "please punch me" face. His ugly face!

I also remembered how cold was the KLIA airport that day when I arrived. Did the A/C spoilt that day? None of the people I met in the airport have happy face. Do they also have a dying dad? If not, why they have sour face? Jay's arrangement of having his best friend Eric picking me up from airport even though I assure him I can take the taxi is a wise move. It's comforting to know that you have friends care about you and your family during those period of time. I also remember I wept at Eric's car, and luckily he has a tissue box because I finished mine.

I miss my dad:( He didn't let me dream of him anymore. I really wonder where does people go when they died. And what went through their head when they breath out last breathe. By the way, I don't believe there's heaven or Jesus or prayers being heard this kind of rubbish. It makes me depressed thinking of this.

Where is my dad???

My Cookie

I have a new phone, his name is Cookie! Hoo Hoo...

I had it for a week, but I was busy trying understands him more with each day passed. It's a cool phone! I like it. OK, if you are comparing it with the iphone, then iphone is still cooler lah (Why I no buy iphone? Because I am a woman, woman changes mind so easily! I was thinking of getting Nokia N71, but when I go into the store, I am so confused with so many sleaky phones, and they all waving at me with their best put-up face and function.. haha). Actually, the first few days after I got this phone, I don't like it, I was so resisting to change and I was still using the sony ericsson, I even have the thought give this phone to my mom to use and I get the Nokia N71. But the more I discover this Cookie, the more I fall in love with it. Haha.

I installed games with GPRS over the weekend, so now I can play my favorite tetris and sudoku on the phone. Yay!

And it can edit photos, for instance the kawaii look icons and font. Hahaha.. ok, this is not the reason I buy this phone, but I am surprised with this function:)

And I can pulled out 9 persons as my most favorite contact so I have short cut key to call that person or write sms to that person.

It's a touch screen phone, with your thumb or the pen. hohoho.. this means, I can type chinese sms even faster!!! (now this is the reason I buy this phone!)

And the phone is thin!

And it has gravity sense! (if you flip it 90 degree, it will display in portrait format)

And, it's not expensive! (meaning if i get bored of it, i can change to new phone without feeling guilty)

I plan to get this phone with my money from the start. When I was pulling out my wallet to pay in the store, bui bui offered to buy for me! I was very touched. (actually, the last sony ericsson s500 phone, bui bui bought for me one, and he make me promised the phone has to last more than 2 years. It only lasted 1 year 4 months++ so by right, I have to pay by myself one) Yoh... why bui bui so nice one:)

p/s: I put my sony ericsson back into the box, to store it away. It's still a nice looking phone. But, sony ericsson has to do better job next time. He just lost a customer. I won't use any sony ericsson phone anymore loh. The next phone I will use is either LG again, Nokia, or iphone.

Where is my necklace?

Bui Bui always wear a phiten necklace, the one that's supposed to reduce your neck muscle strain with magnetic balancing, something like that.

This morning, before he goes to work, he walk in and out of the bedroom finding the necklace. Normally, this kind of behavior only happens at me at home because I am the type will forget where I put the stuff. There was one time I cannot find my glasses and I suspect it was broken by my cleaning lady Ayi and she threw it away to hide the facts (you see, I can have a very good imagination sometimes). Turns out that bui bui found it covered by my clothes on a chair.

So, I asked Bui Bui "could it be you left it in the gym when you took the shower last night?" "Cannot be, I was shaving at home last night, it was on my neck!".

Ignoring him, I quickly dress up and get ready to go out. This week got the guai low boss visiting our office. I don't know why ALL guailow bosses that I known of so far, likes to have early meeting.

Just when I was wearing my shoes, Bui Bui suddenly exclaimed with shyness tone, "Babe, I found it." I was puzzled and excited, "Where?" I asked. Bui Bui answered, "it was on my neck all these while."

I almost pengsan. What about you?

Amazon Kindle

Remember I said I wanted an i-phone almost 1 month ago? Well, after 1 week from the time I wrote the blog, the "desire" dies off. You know lah, women mah...

Then I read a magazine, introducing an e-book reading device, from Amazon, called Kindle. It's now on my wishlist. This device is so cool I read about it's introduction on YouTube (now, who said advertisement must be on TV commercial or magazine?), the word "wireless", "light", "thin", "longlasting battery life" catches my attention immediately.

I wonder can I find it in China. If I can find in China, can I download the e-book content wirelessly with some small fees? Aiyoh... very gun cheong now. Must find out this weekend. Heard the second generation is coming out soon tim... ooo...

It's slightly cheaper than i-phone. And I heard, it works well with i-phone too, I have to find out what it means by that, because as far as I know, the smarty i-phone have every function, but not e-book.

What do you want DL?!

Lately I saw a documentary show about dogs. I feel like I want to own a dog.

I saw my friends kept saying bicycling is additive (in developed country though). I felt like having a bike too.

Friend told me Share A is worth investing, I calculating my capital, see if I have enough to own it or not.

Then Aigie suggesting trips to go on the coming Dumpling Day (public holiday), I wanted to go so many places but only have 4 days off. Near near trip within China I not interested liao. Far far trip needs at least 5 or 6 days I don't dare to take any more leaves I think I am black listed on big boss blackberry (haha... cialat!).

Then over the lunch, my colleague kept telling me the stuff about his little baby (6 months old). I feel like I want baby with Jay.

Why I have so many needs? Keep wanting this and that. I really bengan thinking about options... arrghhh.. "What do you want DL?!"